JULY 4 MARKED MY INDEPEDENCE ALONG WITH THE NATION

DISCLAIMER.. I typed my random thoughts as they came out. Read what you can. I doubt I edit it or put it in order.

4 years ago I thought I had a commitment problem. With that I tried my damnest to stay commited to the woman. I met women here and there but nothing ever came from it other than some useless flirting which was cool with me. Until I met the WOMAN#2. Clearly the fact that she get the WOMAN status in this blog she has become a big player in my life. Well Friday night W#2 Came out to the club. Now we were old friends who recently became new friends and hit it off. To me just having someone refreshing to talk to was great. I had no intent of doing anything wrong. Innocent friend. Maybe some intent was there because I kept my outings private opposed to telling the woman hey this is my buddy we are hanging out. Back to the story. We are hanging having a good time. Dancing. We both had a strong force pulling us together so it managed to pull us to the car. And from the car my 4 years walking the straight and narrow was over.

Any regrets. NO! It gave me a sense of self re assurace. I mean for 2.5 Years i been complaining about a crappy sex life. Could I be doing something wrong I used to think. I mean gosh whats the deal. Well on friday I apparently did some ish right. The stuff I like to do was fun intiment and works great like frosted flakes.

Details of that night.

In the club talking SH T. like Im not gonna kiss you . you gonna kiss me if anything. Face to face like we about to go 12 rounds. (It is easy to talk alot of sh*t when you think you dont have to back it up. i e i never in a million years thought my friend was really that interested. maybe intrigued but for the most part enjoying the newness of us. 

Fast forward

The car. Amazing swag change. if you recall in a previous blog i once found the woman daunting and intimadating while now im sitting there confident in my everymove. Like I ve  been with her already. "own the mind own the body" right. I guess I was mentally on point. So it happend I leaned in and she finally took what she wanted. "OH YES WAIT A MINUTE MR. POST MAN!!

We had a break. Talked. inside i stole a line from andre 3k. ICE COLD TAY ICE COLD.. So things progress I tell her she can take me home. During a pit stop we continue to make out and at 225 a.m saturday july 4th is when it went down. Had we had a bed I prob would have never came home. (This experince made me realize i had no intamacy with the woman at home thus my unhappiness and disconentmeent. My constant complaints about her.  Mean while. Women are generally nortorious for a good fling with my butt. Throughout life I had women and spend a good 3 months with em. Like we were soul mates and then  become total strangers. Thus The woman being the common denomiator in my life. Consistency is one of the greast gifts you can ask for. 

Back to the story.

So after wards she seemed concered about how I felt and what others might think after wards.

Another andre 3k event entered my head. The love below where are my panties skit. " I dont give a damn about her giving it up on the first night. All that does it let me know she knows what she want out of life.' and ooow I just want to lay in her hair.LOL i wish I could read minds. I wonder what she really thought. LIke this mofo aint sh*t. Or he;s amazing. Prob like Well i started something might as well finish it. My friend carries it like a dude so maybe Im just a fling. So making in sudden changes in my life would be unadvised captain.

Some wierd guy in the club would try to talk to her evry time i stepped away. No insecurities here so I wasnt tripping so the third time he did it. I looked at him and he was talking bout her palm then said let me see yours. ''YEs. yess you two were made for each other. YOur both this and that. But if you (me) change she will lose intrest. Your mysterous to her. Her face  somewhat gave that the man knew the truth. And he was african so I called him mr. cleo.

I dunno if he could really read palms but I should have tipped him a 20.. For giving me some back up. Its like i had an extra wing man with me at the club (side note love fridays is offcially over. LUX saturdays is where its at. I think Ill have to start doing park with big A.)

So I think if we never had sex again I'd be fine. If we continued to have sex I'd be fine. So long as I can keep W#2 in my life. Not saying im in the L word but she brings alot of complimentary features in my life that are both terrifying and exhilerating at the same time. Its like discovering you can teleport  anywhere in the world.